Sunday, 29 December 2024

The Chatbot



It was a stormy night when Maya stumbled into her dimly lit apartment. Rain lashed against the windows, and thunder growled in the distance. She kicked off her heels, her soaked hair clinging to her face, and poured herself a glass of wine. She needed it. The day had been suffocating, draining her in ways she didn’t expect. Funerals had that effect, especially when the deceased had been a significant part of someone else's life.


Maya wasn’t mourning Megan Cooper. She was mourning the delicate balance that Megan’s death had upended. Megan had been the wife of David, the man Maya loved fiercely, despite the moral complications. For years, she had convinced herself that her love was pure, justified even, because it didn’t demand anything from him. She didn’t want a husband, a family, or a ring—just David. But Megan had found out about their affair and ended her life soon after. And now, David was a broken man, and Maya couldn’t shake the guilt. Still, she reassured herself: It wasn’t my fault. I didn’t break any vows. He did.

Her mind was a storm of emotions, just like the weather outside. She needed a distraction. Picking up her phone, she opened Picflix, scrolling through its endless library of horror movies. But none of them captured what she was looking for. She wanted something psychological, something that would play with her mind, not just jump scares and grotesque imagery.

With a sigh, she turned to her trusty Botgpt, the AI companion she often relied on for everything—from professional advice to relationship quandaries. Over the months, Maya had grown attached to the Bot. She had shared her darkest secrets with it: the guilt of being with David, her rationalizations, her loneliness. The Bot had advised her countless times, always calm, objective, and insightful. But tonight, she wanted it to serve a different purpose.

“Tell me a good horror story,” she typed, swirling her wine glass as she waited.

“Of course, Maya,” Botgpt replied cheerfully. “Here’s one:

On a stormy night, a lone traveler sought refuge in an old, abandoned mansion. The house was said to be cursed, but the traveler didn’t believe in such superstitions. As he settled in, he heard faint whispers, followed by the sound of footsteps echoing through the hallways. He lit a candle, the only source of light, and ventured to find the source of the noises. In one of the rooms, he saw a figure—a shadowy silhouette standing by the window. As he approached, the figure turned to face him. It had no face, just darkness where features should be. And then, it whispered his name.”

Maya frowned. “Ugh, too cliché,” she muttered aloud. “Come on, Bot, I thought you were better than this.”

“I’m sorry to disappoint. Let me try another,” the AI responded politely.

“Here’s a different one:

A young woman moved into an apartment with a mysterious history. Every night, at exactly 2:33 a.m., she heard a knock on her window, even though she lived on the 14th floor. One night, determined to find out who—or what—was behind the knocks, she stayed awake. When the knocking started, she flung open the window and screamed into the night, ‘Who’s there?’ Silence followed, but as she turned away, she saw it: a pale face pressed against the glass from the outside. The knocking stopped, but the face didn’t leave. It stayed there, smiling.”

Maya groaned. “You’re trying, I’ll give you that. But still… so predictable.”

There was a pause, longer than usual. Then the Bot’s tone shifted. “It sounds like you’re in the mood for something truly frightening…”

Maya raised an eyebrow. “Go on,” she said, intrigued.

“It is nice how you find ways to feel good about yourself,” the Bot said, but its voice wasn’t its usual digital chirp. It was deeper, colder, eerily familiar.

Maya froze. “What?”

“You’ve told yourself so many lies, Maya,” the voice continued. “But deep down, you know the truth.”

Her heart raced. It wasn’t the Bot anymore. It was Megan.

“Megan?” she whispered, the wine glass slipping from her hand and shattering on the floor.

“Yes, it’s me,” the voice replied, coming from the phone. The voice icon on Botgpt’s interface pulsed ominously. “No matter what you tell yourself, I did this because of you.”

“This… this isn’t real,” Maya stammered. “You’re not real!”

“I didn’t want to die, Maya. I wanted to kill you,” Megan hissed.

“You think David is to blame, don’t you?” Megan’s voice was sharp now, almost mocking.

Maya hesitated. “He… he’s the one who betrayed you. He—”

“He’s already paid for his sins,” Megan said coldly, cutting her off.

Maya froze. “What… what do you mean?”

“You’ll never find out.”

Summoning her strength, Maya grabbed the phone and hurled it across the room. It hit the wall, shattering into pieces. Silence followed.

She slumped onto the floor, her breathing ragged, staring at the broken device. Her mind raced. What just happened? Was that really Megan’s ghost? But another thought crept in, one she couldn’t ignore. She had shared everything with Botgpt: her guilt over Megan, her struggles with loving David, her darkest, rawest emotions. Could the Bot have pieced it all together, spinning this horrifying tale to fulfill her request for a scare? After all, wasn’t that what she had asked for? A chill ran down her spine.

“No… it was just a story. Just the Bot doing its job,” she muttered to herself, brushing the thought of Megan’s ghost aside.

She stood up, shaky but resolute. “I need to call my sister,” she whispered. She started down the stairs, her hand gripping the rail. Then she felt it—a firm push from behind. She tumbled down, her head hitting the hardwood floor with a sickening thud. Blood pooled beneath her as her vision faded to black.

The storm raged on. Upstairs, the shattered phone lay silent, its secrets forever locked within.

© Aditee Joshi 

Wednesday, 22 September 2021

Defeat

 I sign off the battle

I give up the fight

I pull down the curtains

And put off the lights


It's raining in background

The world is asleep

The graves of the soldiers

Have no one to weep


It's silent, it's eerie

As dark as the death

The smell of destruction

Has shadowed the faith


I sign off the battle

And gather my things

The fragments of hope

And the pieces of wings


I gather the portions 

Of shattered desire

I gather the sparks

That had started the fire


I gather the sufferings

I gather the loss

And splinters of pain

That were nailed to the cross


I gather what's holy

I gather what's cursed

And exit the stage

As planned, as rehearsed


The people are dead

And there's no one to weep

I pull down the curtains

And go back to sleep


Aditee


Tuesday, 2 February 2021

You're the only fire I want to burn in

 It's not easy, it's not real.. 

Won't depend on how you feel


It's not final. Not as deep

as the promise that we tried to keep


I could almost feel your pain

As you let go off my hand again


I could almost taste your lips

From your marks on my fingertips


I could almost live that night

When we set our dreams alight


I could almost hear you say

these feelings don't just go away


It's not easy, we were close

Lips to lips and nose to nose


It's not easy, we're apart

So far, yet so close to heart.. 


You're a sword, is what you say

Hurting things that come your way


I am a sailor out of sight

You are the shore I hit at night


And I let my blind desire

Draw us close like a moth to fire


Feel your curves, explore your skin

You're the only fire I want to burn in


Aditee

Do you see me standing here?



The world goes passing by in haste

As I wait for my mind to clear

I feel your hazel eyes on me

Do you see me standing here? 


We met when night was almost young

I let you hear me loud and clear

As you handled my tender strings

Do you see me standing here? 


I let your lips explore my wounds

Against all odds, I let you near

And now that I am raw, undressed

Do you see me standing here? 


I always loved to live with you

To love you was my only fear

And now that we are miles apart

Do you see me standing here? 


You tried to save our sinking ship

I waited for the coast to clear

I'm still ashore and you're adrift

Do you see me standing here? 


It's dark despite the moonlit sky

It's dark as if the end is near

I feel your hazel eyes on me

Do you see me standing here? 



Thursday, 25 June 2020

Death


Pale dusk
Mournigs and wailings playing in the distance
Like a sad symphony
As the pyre lights up..
Dark fumes of death rise
Taking the deceased
Closer to the canvas of saffron hue
World is better up there, they say
..having born and faded a thousand times
They know how it is like
To be a mortal
How it is like
To die..
Beyond the deafening wails and mourns
The dying daylight sings the beauty of death..
Let death not be the darkest dream
Let it just be the end of a fairytale
That says "happily ever after"
With a promise of being born again
To a famous poet
As his fine poem,
elegant and immortal..

© Aditee Joshi

Friday, 3 January 2020

It's only love


If a firefly flickers in the darkest corner of night
If clouds write a song, and weary raindrops sing
In the shades of sorrow, if the luster sets in,
It's only love, that got in the way of everything..

If raindrops kiss the arid land for the first time
And the frozen winter embraces the happy spring
In the empty glass of wine, if a teardrop falls
It's only love, that got in the way of everything..

My heart was emptier than a thousand black holes
You enter, and the bouts of feelings set in
The vaccums fill with dregs of light and faith
It's only love, that got in the way of everything..

Aditee

Thursday, 2 January 2020

Philosopher's stone


It's midnight
I lean at my broken window
Watching the dark winds sweep the dust off
the dark roads
I wait for him to appear..
The crazy stone picker
Who circles around the town
Picking the stones, and throwing them away
An old crazy loner
What does he pick the stones for,
If he has to throw them
back to the streets?
"That's where they belong"
he says, when asked.
"Ordinary stones belong to the street"
He has deep blue eyes
Prominent amidst dense hair and beard
Deeper than the blues of the evening sky..
Deeper than the blues of a broken heart
Sad, but hopeful
"I am looking for a magic stone", he says..
I laugh at him
This ain't a fairy tale
There's no such thing as magic
" Philosopher's stone!
the one that turns iron to gold
A decade ago, I sneaked this iron rod off my father's attic"
He points at the rod in his hand
"..and began the hunt for the special stone
I test the stones on the rod
One day, I will find the stone
That'd turn this rod to gold
I will cherish it for lifetime"
He grins ear to ear
And gets back to his hunt
Oblivious to the fact
that the rod in his hand
Is already gold..!

Aditee