Dear Friend,
As I go through the treasured reminiscences of our past, the letters, the cards that we shared, I smile, one of the rarest things I do these days...! Yes, you still make me smile! Like you did back then, when life seemed to be more colourful and vibrant...
As facebook notifies me a 6 year old memory with you, I come across all the crazy things that we did together.. the way we managed to find a few moments away from the rat race and relax in the endless vastness of life.. the way we tried to hide the traces of our craziness from the seemingly normal world... wasn't that fun?
Do you remember us having vowed to be with each other through every thick and thin..? I don't.. We apparently never did. But we did vow to stay in touch on moving apart.. didn't we?
As I browse the pages of old letter that you had left for me, a sudden sense of loss strikes me from within. Yes, somewhere between keeping pace with changing things and failing to maintain contact with you, I lost you... Somewhere between being a functional adult and holding my crazy urges back, I lost you.. Somewhere between sparkly beach sand and my sparkling career goals, I lost you.. Somewhere around the end of teenage and beginning of adulthood, I lost you...
As I laugh over a silly joke written by you on a goodbye card, I realise that the things now, are not the same between us. The vast ocean that we loved visiting to, once upon a time, is now apparently lying between you and me.. I am on the beach and you,at the horizon! Difficult, almost impossible to chase.
I don't know if the distances killed our friendship or we did, but as I put our treasured memories back to the envelope, I feel something tearing apart, deep inside. As I close my eyes to let the agony pass, I see the bits of our torn friendship lying all over..
I don't know if you still care, but I miss you... a lot!
Love,
Aditee
